| Tuesday, August 11th, 2009 |
| 2:27 am |
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| Saturday, March 7th, 2009 |
| 2:46 am |
u and only u...
dam i can't get u out of my head it's been so long and i still just can't stop thinking of u dam it way so crazy why so many thoughts of u dam dam dam just get out of my head... i dream of u and see u when u are not there dam u just get out of my head... |
| Saturday, January 31st, 2009 |
| 1:06 am |
mmm feelings are best left at the end of the bottle...run little man run.... |
| Saturday, December 20th, 2008 |
| 12:54 pm |
all i want to do is run away from you.... |
| Wednesday, December 10th, 2008 |
| 11:38 pm |
new years
heads up no need to ask me what i am doing for new years it will be this..... zzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzz zzzzzz yep sleeping lots of the work and they don't call it the crazy season for nothing.... |
| Sunday, October 12th, 2008 |
| 9:01 pm |
i'm not doing to good
what can i say.... i'm in trouble and i don't know how to fix it.... so not right in the head my life has slipped away from me in a blink of an eye. i can't take this much longer i am lost... self harm and pain so close and i want it to stop i really need to stop and settle down i don't know what i want and what to do everything has become to hard and i just can't cope anymore.... finding it easy to point the finger and say it's your fault but really i know i'm in the wrong just tied of it being my fault even when it's not i have caved when i think i'm taking a stand and standing up for what is right then i'm the asshole i'm the one that's treating u like shit will i'm sorry that i was walked all over buy u for so long that u feel that it's the way u should treat me i'm sorry that i stood buy u for so long and put myself in situations that i didn't feel comfortable in when i needed u to stand buy me when i have fallen so far where are u to be found.... i'm sorry that i can't do this no more i'm sorry that for these last couple of months i been lost and have no idea what to do.... i hate myself so much it's hard to understand why u look at me like u do... i get put down so much that it makes me smile that i know there right i know there better and i can't do anything.....i'm really not doing to good.... peace xxxx Current Mood:  depressedCurrent Music: slipknot-snuff |
| Tuesday, July 8th, 2008 |
| 12:31 pm |
yep stolen
1. Where is your cell phone?floor 2. Significant other? don't have one i think 3. Your hair? getting long needs a wash 4. Your mother? loving 5. Your father? caring 6. Your favorite thing?sleep 7. Your dream last night? angry 8. Your favorite drink? mo harvest's 9. Your dream/goal? ???? 10. The room you are in? bedroom 11. Your hobby? bowling 12. Your fear? being smotherd 13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? not 6feet under 14. Where were you last night? home 15. What you're not? certain 16. Muffins? just the top bit 17. One of your wish list items? better moods 18. Where you grew up? city 19. The last thing you did? try to buy something on ebay 20. What are you wearing? clothes 21. Your TV? is off 22. Your pets? cat 23. Your computer? is broken 24. Your life? crazy at times 25. Your mood? all over the place 26. Missing someone? yes 27. Your car? needs some love 28. Something you're not wearing? eye liner 29. Favorite store? jb 30. Your summer? is fun 31. Like someone? i do 32. Your favorite color? green 33. When is the last time you laughed? monday 34. Last time you cried? not long a go 35. Who will resend this? i have doubts 36. Who will not? people that don't know me... Current Music: m.s.i |
| Monday, June 23rd, 2008 |
| 11:49 pm |
feeling numbe feeling dumb
After all is said and done, i will always have and will love you. You always are my shining star, and with you i am found. There is always room for you in my heart, and everything is right where it belongs, when i am with you. You are my Love, my Muse, my Heart and Soul in living form. till this day i still don't understand this was given to me and i didn't get it then i still don't get it now and i prob never will, why am i so out of touch with my hart, my body can't just stop feeling i know how to feel why do i stop? i hate myself sometimes to love myself. |
| Saturday, June 21st, 2008 |
| 7:39 pm |
broken
29 weeks last log thats a while mah not much has changed head full, hart not there and just a sad look on my face... turned off phone...pushing people away messing with people heads and crushing harts... slipping back to what i dragged myself self out of.. the fight to stop...don't think i have in me...been here before but this time the weight is so much more.(need to fix me need to fix me)....so confused so lost so do not understand.... rah!!!! : Current Mood: depressedCurrent Music: taproot-hate myself |
| Saturday, December 1st, 2007 |
| 3:18 pm |
prank calls when u are going through a rough time make u want to find the person and stab them... Current Mood: when i find u its blood i want |
| Sunday, September 16th, 2007 |
| 10:52 pm |
hi people still a kive and kicking not much to say but hi and waves noght people... |
| Wednesday, May 23rd, 2007 |
| 11:16 pm |
a post to livejournal
i am so happy... things have turned around so much 4 me and life is so good....... Current Music: anything i'm happy |
| Saturday, April 21st, 2007 |
| 2:56 pm |
my eveything hurts....thinking i over did it a bit last night.... hay for tonight... |
| Tuesday, April 17th, 2007 |
| 5:43 pm |
all it takes is to open the mouth and the world can come crashing down on u.... out comes of this event are slowly showing and it's going to hurt at the end.... Current Music: bother.. |
| Thursday, April 12th, 2007 |
| 3:38 pm |
today is a sad day i'm working early shift 2morrow dam i should have said no why must the money be so good... and buy the sound so it i'm going to be going flat out...... Current Music: get up get out get up get out and don't touch my door |
| Wednesday, April 11th, 2007 |
| 5:46 pm |
2 day's off
i have thurs and fri off and i can here a chant in my head it's says DRINK DRINK DRINK DRINK DRINK so cheers!!!!!!! Current Music: faint take me to the hospital |
| Tuesday, April 10th, 2007 |
| 5:34 pm |
oh my i'm so buggered
sum up weekend gold coast fri, vally sat, home recovering sunday till mon 3:30am people screaming to see house mate! worked mon all day 5:30pm started drinking 3ish got home after working and drinking drank more till 4 or 5am went to work today, had nap at work and feel a bit tied but o.k to start drink again! Current Music: dope |
| Saturday, April 7th, 2007 |
| 6:42 pm |
does anyone out there know a band called hell yeah and if so do they now if they are bring out a c.d and when it comes out... |
| 12:44 pm |
ummmm!!!
even tho i didn't drink, well i had one drink i feel very buggered coast was nice last night and yeah fun fun... Current Music: mortis |
| Thursday, April 5th, 2007 |
| 11:24 pm |
got net got foxtel got grog got house i'm happy (got a date hopefuly 2morrow and she lives down the coast so much for close), bit weired that she ownes her own house and is very well off but i have a feeling it will be eye opener 4 me,not much new for me i'm still running the show at my work all indians no cheefs tho god dam i just wish someone would listen to me at work... insted of me going higher up and ratting on them...(so not my style) house is nice looks out at the city nice view and all anyway must get off this computer want to watch t.v Current Music: phone |
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