fuzziemadcow

oh i forgot that this is here

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 16:29:25 GMT

in crazy news yes i am engaged nods dances happy happy...

u and only u...

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 16:48:13 GMT

dam i can't get u out of my head it's been so long and i still just can't stop thinking of u dam it way so crazy why so many thoughts of u dam dam dam just get out of my head... i dream of u and see u when u are not there dam u just get out of my head...

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 15:07:35 GMT

mmm feelings are best left at the end of the bottle...run little man run....

Sat, 20 Dec 2008 02:55:15 GMT

all i want to do is run away from you....

new years

Wed, 10 Dec 2008 13:40:13 GMT

heads up no need to ask me what i am doing for new years it will be this.....

zzzzzzzzz
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zzzzzz yep sleeping lots of the work and they don't call it the crazy season for nothing....

i'm not doing to good

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 11:24:47 GMT

what can i say.... i'm in trouble and i don't know how to fix it.... so not right in the head my life has slipped away from me in a blink of an eye. i can't take this much longer i am lost... self harm and pain so close and i want it to stop i really need to stop and settle down i don't know what i want and what to do everything has become to hard and i just can't cope anymore.... finding it easy to point the finger and say it's your fault but really i know i'm in the wrong just tied of it being my fault even when it's not i have caved when i think i'm taking a stand and standing up for what is right then i'm the asshole i'm the one that's treating u like shit will i'm sorry that i was walked all over buy u for so long that u feel that it's the way u should treat me i'm sorry that i stood buy u for so long and put myself in situations that i didn't feel comfortable in when i needed u to stand buy me when i have fallen so far where are u to be found.... i'm sorry that i can't do this no more i'm sorry that for these last couple of months i been lost and have no idea what to do.... i hate myself so much it's hard to understand why u look at me like u do... i get put down so much that it makes me smile that i know there right i know there better and i can't do anything.....i'm really not doing to good....

peace xxxx

yep stolen

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 02:51:41 GMT

1. Where is your cell phone?floor
2. Significant other? don't have one i think
3. Your hair? getting long needs a wash
4. Your mother? loving
5. Your father? caring
6. Your favorite thing?sleep
7. Your dream last night? angry
8. Your favorite drink? mo harvest's
9. Your dream/goal? ????
10. The room you are in? bedroom
11. Your hobby? bowling
12. Your fear? being smotherd
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? not 6feet under
14. Where were you last night? home
15. What you're not? certain
16. Muffins? just the top bit
17. One of your wish list items? better moods
18. Where you grew up? city
19. The last thing you did? try to buy something on ebay
20. What are you wearing? clothes
21. Your TV? is off
22. Your pets? cat
23. Your computer? is broken
24. Your life? crazy at times
25. Your mood? all over the place
26. Missing someone? yes
27. Your car? needs some love
28. Something you're not wearing? eye liner
29. Favorite store? jb
30. Your summer? is fun
31. Like someone? i do
32. Your favorite color? green
33. When is the last time you laughed? monday
34. Last time you cried? not long a go
35. Who will resend this? i have doubts
36. Who will not? people that don't know me...

feeling numbe feeling dumb

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 14:01:05 GMT

After all is said and done, i will always have and will love you.
You always are my shining star, and with you i am found.
There is always room for you in my heart, and everything is right where it belongs,
when i am with you.
You are my Love, my Muse, my Heart and Soul in living form.

till this day i still don't understand this was given to me and i
didn't get it then i still don't get it now and i prob never will, why am i so out of touch
with my hart, my body can't just stop feeling i know how to feel why do i stop?
i hate myself sometimes to love myself.

broken

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 10:03:51 GMT

29 weeks last log thats a while mah not much has changed head full, hart not there and just a sad look on my face... turned off phone...pushing people away messing with people heads and crushing harts... slipping back to what i dragged myself self out of.. the fight to stop...don't think i have in me...been here before but this time the weight is so much more.(need to fix me need to fix me)....so confused so lost so do not understand.... rah!!!! :

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 05:20:48 GMT

prank calls when u are going through a rough time make u want to find the person and stab them...

Sun, 16 Sep 2007 12:53:10 GMT

hi people still a kive and kicking not much to say but hi and waves noght people...

a post to livejournal

Wed, 23 May 2007 13:18:01 GMT

i am so happy... things have turned around so much 4 me and life is so good.......

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 04:58:10 GMT

my eveything hurts....thinking i over did it a bit last night.... hay for tonight...

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 07:47:06 GMT

all it takes is to open the mouth and the world can come crashing down on u.... out comes of this event are slowly showing and it's going to hurt at the end....

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 05:41:16 GMT

today is a sad day i'm working early shift 2morrow dam i should have said no why must the money be so good... and buy the sound so it i'm going to be going flat out......

2 day's off

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 07:48:49 GMT

i have thurs and fri off and i can here a chant in my head it's says DRINK DRINK DRINK DRINK DRINK
so cheers!!!!!!!

oh my i'm so buggered

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 07:41:55 GMT

sum up weekend gold coast fri, vally sat, home recovering sunday till mon 3:30am people screaming to see house mate! worked mon all day 5:30pm started drinking 3ish got home after working and drinking drank more till 4 or 5am went to work today, had nap at work and feel a bit tied but o.k to start drink again!

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 08:44:28 GMT

does anyone out there know a band called hell yeah and if so do they now if they are bring out a c.d and when it comes out...

ummmm!!!

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 02:46:50 GMT

even tho i didn't drink, well i had one drink i feel very buggered coast was nice last night and yeah fun fun...

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 13:32:16 GMT

got net got foxtel got grog got house i'm happy (got a date hopefuly 2morrow and she lives down the coast so much for close), bit weired that she ownes her own house and is very well off but i have a feeling it will be eye opener 4 me,not much new for me i'm still running the show at my work all indians no cheefs tho god dam i just wish someone would listen to me at work... insted of me going higher up and ratting on them...(so not my style) house is nice looks out at the city nice view and all anyway must get off this computer want to watch t.v

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 09:26:56 GMT

house hunting sucks ass even when u have freinds in the bizz you can still get fucked over grrrr just want 2 be in a place thats a bit bigger

it's like smoking but i feel more dirty

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 11:33:49 GMT

first day back at work and work was hard lol ummm thinking of the moving thing again.. looking to be in place were it's not a mission to get to people and to move in with someone 2... have no real plans still ummming and arhhhing if i want to go to over cranked or the after party i have no drive to go out clubbing it's not like i don't want to i just get tied thinking of going out then get home then be all crappy for the next day and so forth... so it's valday today an once again i avoided getting anything thank god... got my tat finished if i new what i was doing i would put the pic on here but i don't and don't tell me how it's a good world i live in u tell me it will through out info that i need.. so ian shut up and stop crapping on!!!!

holidays

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 07:53:13 GMT

2 weeks off and i'm sick this is why i don't take holidays i get fucking sick on them and can't do shit i don't even know why i'm out of the the falt right now i have a pain in my head and my left eye feels like it will pop sigh so tied and just am in pain all over... mah peace out..

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 14:23:30 GMT

lets just say tonight was shit with a little bit of goodness at the end of it i'm not the best at meeting new people and tonight i was smitten a bit... now i play the waiting game with what i have been told i have a chance woot... on the down side people where just being a pain and i'm just glad i made it home..walking sucks but i get there in the end... anyway peace out and if any one wants a cat please call me...

who wants it

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 03:37:30 GMT

o.k well i have had enogh of living out at toowong and will be moving in a month so the qustion will be asked who wants a cat i would take him with but don't like my chances of being allowed with other house mates plus he is an indoors cat and i have asked and he would be outside wich i don't like... stage two of tat has hit a snag has been pushed back a week or two but i might put in for hoildadays so i can recover and relax for a bit.. bah crazy times... wont be clubbing for a bit got other things to take care of... (weight problem) yeah it's all was fun to here wow u look umm u put weight on or u have filled out but the best one is ummm u got fat... grrrr mah i don't even now why i'm typing this but i'm happy the way i am so Fuck off.. hehehehe ummm stuff to do and people to bug bye...